The News Today

Heard the news today that you had passed away
Few emotions experienced yet you've been on my mind all day
It was only a spiraling year or two
Hardly knowing you
Never had much time
The relationship severed, the connection lost
Splintering another alliance to a mostly forgotten past
Wanted you to know I've been thinking of you
This day, last year, from time to time
Despite the distance never entirely forgotten
Always holding regrets for how things ended
Wondering what you thought
What you were told
Wanting five minutes to tell the other side of the story
Though it really didn't matter, the story had ended
It should have been different
But circumstances dictated brevity mixed with caution
Residual hazy memories reigned since
Slowly fading, eroding into dust and mist
Your passing, ending a generation
You knew different times, had different but parallel hopes
Had your own world
And stories never known

September 2015

A mutual friend informed me of the passing of my ex mother-in-law. The news just a few days old. My memories of her are mostly blurred due to the passing of time. The ex-wife once told me that she was a descendent of Belle Starr. That's pretty much all that I remember of her. I wish that I had more to say about her. After all the years since last being around her, I'm not even sure of her first name. The news of her passing was a surprise but I didn't feel much in the way of emotions. It's just been too long and too few shared moments even when she was part of my world.  

A Distance Maintained

A distance maintained to honor unspoken rules and commandments

Guidelines accepted by the majority of searchers

Despite temptation and the urgings of others

For the betterment of life ..... Or is it?

The inner yearnings fail to recognize these supposed truths

Yet concious and wisdom suggest absolute morality, an adherence to the norm

You don't need the agony yet contemplate possibilities and doubt

Thankful that they can't monitor the mind and submerged desires

Maybe in a different time and place all would be fine

You were once young and bold and despite occasional fears, willing to take a chance

On life, on love

On a heart filled with contentment

Over rapidly passing years you realize it's all changed

Possibilities became taboo amid warnings of eternal scorn

It was never your way to challenge these things

Unknown Date

Not sure what I was initially thinking but what comes to mind after reading these words today ..... There are some words and reactions that maybe only apply to one day in a life. What's applicable for today may have no meaning tomorrow. Or ever again for that matter. Abstract truths may have a short life span.